Always!

I CANT BELIVE THIS IS HAPPENING.
its always my faultyou know.
Now I'm just alone, weak and sick of it all.
Theres nothing I can do.
no one to talk to.
its just me.

I know the picture is up side down, but this is what I look like when I get home from a night out.
find something not correct with this picture.
I DARE YOU :P

omfg.
no friends, no boyfriend, no family to talk to.
what the fuck is left of my life?
Right now I cant find a reason to keep living this shit live.
I aint saying I'm gonna do something bad about it. but its all messed up.
I dont know shit anymore.
I feel so..
not here, even when I'm here.
I'm going to bed.
I dont want to cry anymore.
been crying for the last four days. and some weeks before this.
When will it stop?
it just never stops.
I dont want to do this anymore.
PEOPLE CANT EVEN SEE THE POINT.
it makes me loose my point.
what IS the point?
what is the point of trying when nobody ever cares?
or get it?
I need a friend. so badly..