Unspoken words

Where am I
And what have I done?
How did I let this go so far?

Its like waking up from a bad dream.
Your hearts is pumping and your puls is skyhigh
- I'm falling apart

Always taking care of everybody else
I seem to forget myself.
In this mess.

I'm not the fortunated one
and I'll probably never be.
But I'll keep pursuiting happiness
- cause thats what I need.


It gets hard to breath.
having difficulties to speak
just these small words grew so big
So now I cant make them real.
I cant swallow my pride and say "Help me."
"Help me, please.."

I have everything I could ever ask for
but still there's something missing.
I create my own sorrows
- and that's a fact

Wont somebody give me meds and a shoulder to cry on.
'cause I'm falling apart
and I'm scared of letting it show

Drawn in different directions
trying to please all at once
I use my last bit of energy
just to get myself home

So I can breake down behind closed doors.
Behind closed doors.

I gets hard to breath
having difficulties to speak
just these small words grew so big
So now I cant make them real.
I cant swallow my pride and say "Help me."
"Help me, please.."